Funding for Radiation Treatment

It's been 6 months since I had surgery to remove my thyroid, and the massive tumor that had formed. Soon after, I discussed the next steps with my doctor. He determined that, under close watch, it should be safe to hold off radiation treatments for a few months so I could nurse Emmylou. I hated that I wouldn't be able to nurse her as long as I wanted to, but have tried to be thankful that I was able to at all. Time passed, and it started to feel like the end to nursing wasn't really going to come, like maybe I didn't need any further treatment. Then, two weeks ago I got approved for the funding I needed to afford the treatments. It has all surfaced again, and I am just not ready. I had no idea I would enjoy that time with my daughter so much. More importantly, Emmylou is not ready. Nursing soothes her when nothing else does. Weaning her at this point just seems like a bad idea- we are not ready, and no one likes to be forced to do something.

Anxiously,
L

Dear Emmylou

Dear Emmylou,
You are army crawling all over the place, and powering through any food placed in front of you. You're getting the pincer grip down, can say "Hi" and you've got the cutest wave. Lately you've been even more of a mommy's girl- I guess you miss me since I'm at work all the time. But you love anyone who talks to you, and especially other kiddos.
For the holidays, Leela and I took you to visit Santa at the Galleria. You LOVED him. It must have been the beard. You happily sat on his lap, then almost fell over trying to get a good look at him. You loved the Christmas tree and lights at Leela and Papi's house, and had fun ripping paper and then crawling through the mess on the floor.